I pen down this last blog with heavy heart as Kartik leaves for heavenly abode. This gives us the evidence that even the kingdom of God has dearth of noble and kind-hearted people so He takes them away from us. Though Kartik is not with us physically, his soul is very much with all of us. I am sure a star is born somewhere amongst us at 6.55 A.M. today.
He led an exemplary life and I am at loss of words to describe that. After fighting a long battle for 18 months, Kartik finally succumbed to his illness. I am happy that he put a brave front till last and exuded energy and courage throughout. May his soul rest in peace.
We have organized a prayer meeting on Saturday between 5-6 P.M. The venue is still not decided, however, we will do that in a day or two.
We thank you all for your continued encouragement, support and prayers, however, HE wanted Kartik to be with Him sooner and so be it.
To a man of courage, love, optimism, and gentle nature, thank you for the example.
ReplyDeleteGood bye friend.
Luis
HATS OFF TO THE COURAGE OF WHOLE FAMILY AND SURBHI IN SPECIAL. REALLY A LOT TO LEARN STILL. PRAY GOD GIVE STRENGTH TO FIND THE STAR SOME WHERE NEAR US AFTER 7 AM TODAY. GREAT COURAGE ONCE AGAIN. GAURANG FALGUNI AND ALL.
ReplyDeleteIt is axiomatic that dear kartik used the sheer power of his words that he commanded to expree his innermost thoughts but the same power of words vanishes if we try to describe his loss. That handwritten letter to his uncle that he writes about in his last blog was mailed to us and we will cherish forever the feelings and love that exude from it. Hats off to Surabhi and all for the equanimity and our prayers for Kartik to rest in peace. He will continue to shine even more brightly.
ReplyDeleteDearest Surbhi,
ReplyDeleteAm at a total loss of words and is awe of your courage and strength! Thank you for your continuous updates and especially this last post. Hearing from you really helps.
Kartik, you are going to be missed terribly. Now we will need all the positive vibes from you to help us.
Chandana
A nicer, kindler, gentler and more sincere person I have never met. A true intelectual, who despite his incredible talents was so very humble.
ReplyDeleteUnfortunately I do not posses words sufficient to express my sorrow and all I can say is that we all will miss Kartik. it is so hard to beleive that we won't see his beatific smile and twinkling eyes again.
Surbhi, may God add to your already incredible strength and help you through this terrible loss.
Our thoughts, wishes and prayers are with you.
Kamal
Good bye to a man who was incredibly gentle, noble and brave till the very end. While philosophical refuge is the only thing we can have at this point, one can't help registering a note of complaint, futile as it may be, over the outcome to the "super doctor".
ReplyDeleteKartik Rindani will be terribly missed by friends and family alike. May his soul rest in peace. Our prayers and wishes are with the Rindani family in this time of grief.
Kartik was a great man with a kind, gentle soul. I am blessed to have known him. His soul will rest in peace.
ReplyDeleteHis friend, Heidi
Surbhi, you and your family have my sympathies; I am sorry for your loss.
ReplyDeleteKartik will live in my memory as a great friend and a brilliant colleague, and an extremely courageous human being. I will continue to take encouragement from him.
ReplyDeleteMy condolences to Surbhi and the family.
- Vin
Surbhi, I know what we feel is only a shadow of what you must be feeling. But do know that Kartik was a dear friend (and colleague) and he will be sorely missed by all of us. Our mourning is the final tribute to the wonderful life he led and the impact he had on us. He remains with us in the memories we have of our times together and we are grateful for having known him.
ReplyDeleteYou and the rest of the family are in all of our thoughts and our hearts go out to you.
Surbhi
ReplyDeleteI am completely in loss of words and very saddened at what may be the reason god wanted Kartik so early.
I can only say that Kartik has had a very big impact in my life and i really cherish all the moments i have had with him and will remember every bit of this positive nature all my life.
Arati and I remember just a few months ago you had been to Alaska and stopped by to meet us and having had the chance to share lunch with you all in cross roads.
I don't know if any words can comfort you, but I hope you get the strength bear with this loss and I really wish I was able to make it to the prayer meeting. But we will pray surely from here.
Kartik, you surely will be missed by me for a long long time to come.
Our thoughts, wishes and since prayers are with you.
Sincerely,
Vibhu Srinivasan
Dear Surbhi,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is filled with emotions and words are struggling to find their way. My memory of yours is from very long time ago but we did talk once during your stay in USA. Kartik fought a courageous battle. May his soul rest in peace. My prayers and blessings are with you.
Dolly
Rest in Peace Sweet Prince 'Gentlest and Nicest Soul' I have ever known. Between Surbhi and you, have taught how to fight and not give up during adversities. You will be missed.
ReplyDeleteભાભી,
ReplyDeleteકાર્તિકભાઇ ના સમાચાર માનવામાં આવતા નથી અહીં લખતા આંખો ભરાઇ આવે છે
હું તમો સર્વે પરીવારજનોની પાસે – સાથે જ છું
પ્રતીક અંજારીઆ ના જય હાટકેશ
To all@torana.com,
ReplyDeleteMuch as it is hard for the family to take the loss of Kartikbhai, we have to submit to the sovereignty of God. Look at it this way - Kartikbhai gave us so many things to make our stay here an enjoyable one. I have hardly found a human being so noble, loving, caring and compassionate.
Kartikbhai, Devangi and I made a close-knit, hilarious trio. Our captain has hung his boots - but has left behind values that will help his teammates lead by example in the times ahead.
There is so much to say - I had so much I wanted to tell him - 3 PJs I wanted to share with him - and so much more... On our way back from Pune, Saamarthya said that "Papa is praying to Jesus because Kartikkaka is coughing." It's not hard for a tiny 2-yr old to perceive and receive love from a love-filled heart like that of Kartikkaka.
We've prayed for strength for you all. God bless you!
Its hard to believe this mostly because of the strength Karthik displayed each time I spoke to him or met him; I was fortunate to have met him in Pune last year. Karthik will be remembered as an exceptional human being by everyone who would have known him. He has touched my life in a way that will leave some part of his thoughts with me forever. May his soul rest in peace. - Prashanth Thiruvaipati.
ReplyDeleteKartik was an wonderful and beautiful human being. All this love from his family and friends is a testament to that and how deeply he has touched us all.
ReplyDeleteWe will sorely miss him. He will continue to live in our hearts and minds.
Surbhi, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your families.
Kartik,was truly a genuine personality with lots of patience & perseverance,he would be an example and inspiration for all many years to come in our hearts.May God bless his soul peace and serenity as well Surbhi and her family courage to withstand the loss of immortal Kartik.
ReplyDeletefrom Appi and Pranalee
My Dear Surbhi,
ReplyDeleteWords cannot express the sorrow we are feeling for you right now. Kartik has been so brave and his blogs were truly a pleasure to read. This has been an especially difficult year for you, but you will no doubt make Kartik proud by coming through this with strength and grace. You and Rindani family are in our thoughts and prayers. Minauti and Anand
Dear Kartik,
ReplyDeleteYou will be missed and your life is a shining example and full of grace.
My prayers are with the family.
Love
Amit
Farewell DEAR Kartik Rest In Peace
ReplyDeleteThe final reality of life has left a vaccum in our lives.
Ultimately you are free of the Ups & Downs Platelet & Blood Transfusions, chemos & transplants & at peace in the lap of Almighty.
I have learnt a lot from your attitude,
Your gentleness, your ever smiling face, your concern for us, your bravery & your positivity, your devotion to work . The huge number of friends & colleagues who came to pay their homage speak volumes about one of the finest human beings we will ever know.
During the hardest times of out life I remember your concern for us worrying about you & your assurance about your psychological well being.
I am sure your "Atma" has merged into "Parmatma" & you are in Eternal Peace.
Final Farewell Dear Kartik. We will always feel your presence with us on all occasions .
This is bidding goodbye to my dearest Kartik Fua. I had my exams and so I am a little late. Well, as a lot of people have already said, he was a great human being. He was kind and always ready to help everyone around. Even though he was admitted, undergoing chemo,he would still give prompt replies to all my emails, make me presentations for my college projects. I must say,he was very knowledgelabe in his subject and very intelligent. It is really admirable how bravely and optimistically he fought this dreaded disease. Also i agree that there is in real sense a LOT to learn from Surbhi foi.
ReplyDeleteKartik Fua, We will all miss you.
-Drashti
As a close friend of Surbhi, it was amazing how soon and effortlessly Kartik became " one of our gang". Kartik was very likeable, intelligent and well read.
ReplyDeleteThough we came from entirely different work backgrounds, Kartik and I shared a love for books and I fondly remember our discussions and dissections of various titles.
Throughout the tryst of the last 18 months, I remember Kartik's positivity and optimism. Both Surbhi and Kartik drew and derived strength from each other.An untimely loss as this requires great fortitude, for which only time is the healer.
My prayers and wishes to Uncle, Aunty, Devangi,Akshay,little Mahy and above all Surbhi.
I know the turmoil Surbhi has gone through the past many months. To her, I write these lines which I know Kartik would have endorsed.
"If my parting has left a void,
Then fill it with remembered joy.
Be not burdened at times of sorrow,
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow."
With Warm Regards,
Minali Shah
Dearest Kartikbhai, I cannot even imagine a world without you. Right from the time I could make out who "my people" are I have seen and felt you around. I took your presence in my life for granted, only to be made to realise "this is not so" rather rudely. I remember all our fights, arguements, our sharing of toffees that we got at school for birthdays, we playing ghar-ghar, the tree house times, you ganging up with Sitanshubhai to really trouble me, our sessions with Ketanbhai, our vacation trips to Mahuva, our entire life together! You have been a parent to me when we stayed in Pune, you have been a friend, a discplinarian, a guide and most of all my support. Life without you is going to be part empty leaving a void that no one can ever fill. I will cherish our memories. I am blessed that you chose me to be your sister in your this journey.
ReplyDeleteYou have been an inspiration and an example to all of us and I am sure you be continue to lead us from the place where you are. A place where you no longer have to worry for your counts to increase or the anti-biotics to take effect. You were loved in this world but I am sure you will be cherised in that one too.
I shall now step up up to take your place as the son to our parents. I know I am going to be a mere shadow to what you were to them but it is under this shadow that I promise to take care of them and make them feel as less pain as I can. Mahy is going to miss her running aorund the house with you, your funny games with her. I know that I cannot be what you were to all of them but I will try.
Goodbye, stay well and guide us, dearest brother! Lots of Love from Deva (a name I will crave to be called by now)
This would be a feeble attempt to portray KartikBhai. KartikBhai lived emblematic life and left a deep impression of *Life* in our hearts. It’s a great loss to entire family, friends and colleagues. In real sense, you proved the quote “Let us endeavor so to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry.”
ReplyDeleteIn my wildest dream, cannot imagine that his journey would end though we were armed on all possible ways. I had lots of leanings from him on my personal and professional fronts/career. However, as a human nature, I always feel I could have learnt more. As I grew, I carved out some my characteristics from him. Sometimes, I also felt that “we are derived from a common base class” in technical terms; we had quite common syntax and semantics so to speak. KartikBhai has supported me to a greatest degree whenever I was feeling low and fumbled/tumbled while crossing worldly hurdles. KartikBhai used to tell me “fight your own battle; no matter how weak you are.” We all witnessed this in his blogs. And I have been following it. KartikBhai, you would be dearly missed for family gathering, mimicking, vimto, soda, trips to vaadi, pani-puri, movies, coffee etc. [sigh]. KartikBhai had an art to make speak not only his writings (technical and non-technical) but his life as well.
I must not to forget SB(aka SurbhiBhabhi) at this juncture. Her support to KartikBhai is indelible/incredible right from the day one. I had gotten an opportunity to get a few drops of her learning and way of life. I am very impressed by her positive thinking and looking at the things beyond horizon. I wish I could absorb and them completely.
Let me use this stage and note to salute Fua, Fai, Devangi. I am running out of words and loosing my thoughts. Keeping cool under tremendous tension and pressure with keeping all the threads of a rope rightly bound is something that I have observed. Wish I could practice the same. May we all stand-by (Fai, Fua, Devangi) and act as Kartik and KartikBhai in whatever small opportunities we get in future.
As always, it is easier saying than done but may God bless and strengthen the family to face KartikBhai’s void. I am sure the great soul would come back to us in different form and shape. May the soul rest in peace and always remain spiritually with all of us.
Aum…Aum…Aum…
Astu.
Dear Surbhi,
ReplyDeleteAt the onset let me introduce myself.I am Girikaki's youngest sister Aasha.Though we have never met I was getting the health updates from Giriben and Mu Navnitbhai.At this point the courage and fortitude with which you are braving this storm in your life puts you on a very high pedestal.Your courage I am sure in turn lends courage to Res Girishbhai,Kokilabhabhi and Devangi.You have taught us seniors how to accept God's verdict with a brave heart.I hope and pray that He will give you all,all the courage to move on in life following that star sky now named KARTIK.
MA Amba had gifted me with her "invaluable" jewel but Alas! I could not protect or save it. Thats why she took it away from me.
ReplyDeleteThrough my life, Kartik, you were my Guru in the real sense. You always taught me how to forgive and forget and how to think of and worry for others before one ownself.
I am not going to say Goodbye to you beacuse I am know that you are coming back in lives.
Lots of love, Ma.
Our deepest condolences to Uncle, Aunty, Surbhi, Devangi and family. We will surely miss Kartik's gentle and caring nature and happy personality. Kartik,you will be greatly missed.
ReplyDeleteWe grieve with you during this difficult time. Surbhi,you and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Mamta and Ketan
Surabhi,
ReplyDeleteI came to know about Kartik's departure from Sangita. We were in the same class at college.
All of us are deeply saddned. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Ashish.
When Kartik was twenty three, he wrote a poem about role of a gardner. The poem gives an insight into Kartik's emotional perceptiveness. As a rememberance to Kartik I reproduce the poem hereunder.
ReplyDeleteMy Gardener and I
As I ripped out through the soil, streaks of sunlight blinded me. I could discern the silhouette of my creator. He squatted beside me. His eyes gleaming with pride and joy. The scorching sun had sprouted beads of sweat on his forehead. The under side of his feet had developed cracks all over, owing to the unkind soil. He had endured and persevered and his prayers were answered.
So vulnerable was I. My leaves were still velvety and as delicate as gossamer. My stem was so thin, that I feared that I would be uprooted even by the most benign storms. But with him beside me, I felt a cozy sense of security.
Time waits for no one. It didn’t wait for me too. I grew.
I know not of the summer sun, which is said to burn our bodies and deprive us of the water, as he was there to quench my thirst anytime, come what may.
I know not of the squalls and rainstorms, which lives us torn asunder, as he was there shielding them away.
I know not of the affliction caused when the scythe slices through the body, as he was there fighting against the adversaries.
Springs came and went and so did the summers, winters and autumns. Twenty three years hence, I, the vulnerable shrub, have transformed into a strong tree and in this season of spring, the first fruit has blossomed on me and who else but my gardener deserves it more than anyone else?
May His soul rest in peace
Madhukarmama Nanavati and family
Dearest Kartik,
ReplyDeleteWords are your friends, not mine. Many inexpressible thoughts and feelings, we have always shared, non-verbally.
You, Surbhi, Girishbhai, Kokilaben, and Devangi have shown exemplary strength, courage and spirit. We are inspired, and overwhelmed. We salute you all. We are proud to be your family.
May god give all of us the strength to accept this, and the wisdom to understand this.
Love and blessings always.
Darshanamami and kids.
For all my other nephews and nieces I am “Meenamasi” but for Kartik I was “Meenakshimasi” which I always liked and found special. Now, Siddharth’s “Kartikk Maama” and “Meenakshimasi’s” nephew Kartik, has left us and gone away.
ReplyDeleteKartik developed a special place in our heart during his stay in Seattle. This special place not only was but will always be reserved with us. In our hours of need, Kartik always gave us his support and strength. Unfortunately during the final days of his illness we were unable to do the same for him. Kartik went to the Lords abode with a smile on his lips, but we have been left here with tears in our eyes.
After their wedding we had the fortune of getting to know Chi Surbhi in Seattle as well. We found in her a truly special person, balanced, patient and full of affection. They both were happy and truly completed each other. Friends and companions in every way, till the very end as Surbhi stood by Kartik, literally in sickness and in health.
His use of the word “Ma” for Sau. Kokila Ben brimmed over with such affection and love that it warmed our heart just to hear him say it. We also got to feel the deep love he had for his sister through his joyous recollections of her wedding and his stories about his niece Mahi.
I cannot even begin to imagine how agonizing it must have been for Shree Girishbhai, who was not only his “Papa” but also a doctor, to go through those final days.
I am distant, not only in terms of location, but also a relative. However, he pulled us (“Meenakshimasi” and “Shekharmasa”) close to himself and after making us one of his own, has now passed away. I am full of grief, but wish that wherever he is, God give him peace.
Meenakshimasi from Seattle
You are on our mind Kartikbhai
ReplyDeleteKartik - It was exactly a year back that I entered the world of your blog. It was like entering a cool, clear stream of water on a hot summer day. Every word of yours made an impact, alternatingly inspirational, hilarious, profound, mundane, worrying, uplifting and always very, very entertaining. Oscar Wilde once wrote that there are no good or bad novels, only well written ones and badly written ones. By that standard, your blog, your words, your thoughts and emotions were all wonderful insights to the generosity of your spirit, the largeness of your heart and the gentleness of your soul.
ReplyDeleteBelieve me when I say, dear friend, that not a day passes when we do not shed a silent tear for you are not with us, suppress an indignified guffaw over some wisecrack you made so many years ago, and miss you so so terribly.
Rajeshbhaiya, it is good to know that I am not the only one who visits this site. I keep visiting it in the vain hope that I will see something new. For more than a year, this had become my "start the day" routine. I would be restless if there were no updates.
ReplyDeleteKartikbhai, there is not an hour in the day when I dont think of you. The other day I had this conversation with Amol on some puns and I thought to myself, "I am so not the best audience". Though I enjoyed the puns, I know that you would have enriched it with your humour. Also, last week for the first time, I wrote a piece of work and put it up on Facebook. The first ever that I let others read. :) My first thought was to run it past you!
Ma and papa are trying their level bast to come to terms with it but I know it is going to be tough. I am trying Kartikbhai to ease their pain, promise!
May misses you terribly too, though she cannot quite explain what she is feeling. She now keeps telling me to ask you to come back. She feels you are on a vacation, and just extended it beyond what you should have. How I wish you were! At least I could have heard your voice! I will give anything to just hear a "Bolo Deva!"
Miss you terribly! Love you!
We completed two years yesterday of our battle with the disease starting yesterday. You fought it with bravely and with elan and like everything else you did, made us proud.
ReplyDeleteMiss you!
Dear Devangi,
ReplyDeleteI am Chandana's cousin--Ketan, (Meenakshimasi and Girikaki's younger sister's son) out here in Washington DC. All these days, I could not find the courage to post my thoughts on here but somehow today I collected enough to write.
I can assure you that Karthik--his bravery and the way he battled his illness are definitely not forgotten. I visit this blog quite often, not to relive the painful days but to take inspiration from Karthik's posts and words.I can assure you that there have been very few times in the last 6 months when I have not thought of some word or post or inspiring thought from this blog to pull me thru the day. Through this blog, Karthik taught me to be more humble and yet have a good laugh regarding fate/life. I cannot thank him enough for that invaluable education.
Ketan
Dear Ketanbhai,
ReplyDeleteI have heard about you fro Girikaki for sure. And I thank you for putting this post up. It makes all of us realise how much Kartikbhai has touched so many people around us. It also makes me proud to be such a man's sister and to be referred to so.
I completely agree with you when you say that his words have inspired us and they continue to do so. There are times when we are forced to sit back and actually think, "what would Kartikbhai do in such a situation?".
We all are humbled by your this post and thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
Regards,
Devangi
Just wanted you to know that you are still being remembered by all around us. I just had this awesome conversation about you with Ravi. He is leaving Spider this week but he says that it is difficult to ever forget you.
ReplyDeleteMiss you!
Dearest Kartikbhai, wish you a very happy Rakshabandhan! I had made up my mind not get all low today because I know that whether you are there with me or not, you are protecting me and are guiding me in your own way. But that does not mean my pain of missing you is any less. This is the first instance in 35 years when I don't have a reason to look forward to today.
ReplyDeleteMahy completes 4 years today and I know that you would have doted on her and given her whatever she asked for. She too misses you a lot!
God plays funny games, like today I think he really wanted me to be confused about what feelings should I pay more attention to. To miss you so much or to be happy for Mahy!
Well I beat God to it! I balanced it out as well as I could!
Once again, happy rakshabandhan and stay well!
Love,
Devangi
Dearest Kartikbhai,
ReplyDeleteI did get a gift on Rakshabandhan from Ma and Papa. Not on that day but I consider it my rakhdi gift. :) They gave me your Guitar!!
You know how musically not inclined I am, so I convinced Mahendra to take classes for some other members like me! They have gone a little dull but then I took printouts from the net and started working on it myself. :)
Thank you so much for this, especially because you have collected everything possible for aiding me to play well!
Lots of love,
Miss you,
Devangi
Dear Kartikbhai ...I thought of you today ..Nov 7 ..Happy Birthday .... Dhiti
ReplyDeleteDearest Kartikbhai, thought of you a lot yesterday. I tried to make it lively and alright because it was your birthday but then the whole feeling of missing you terribly took over. I again went through this whole "why?" phase again. And I still dont have an answer to that one!
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Kartikbhai, you are and will always be in our thoughts!
Love,
Devangi
Dearest Kartikbhai, it is soon going to be a year from when you decided to leave us and find your moksha. All the events of the last few days have been reeling in my head and I can't help but wonder what if we were able to change just one incident which could have made you stay with us. My ears still ache for the sound of "Deva" around me. But I know I am only fooling myself in the hope that I will hear it sometime.
ReplyDeleteThey say time heals but they all forget to mention, how long will it actually take? And I feel sometimes that this is like a wound that does heal but every little jerk or awkward movement, reminds you of that wound that was.
Life goes on, yes that it does. But will it ever be the same again? I wonder why the philosophers forget to mention these "Conditions apply" kind of caveats to the situation.
For all who wonder whether time does heal, yes it does, just until it starts hurting again. Life goes on, yes it does, just until you remember that it can never be what it was.
I just hope that you have found your happiness even if we are not a part of it anymore.I hope you have reached a place in life where pains and gains don't matter.
How I wish that it was easy and possible to just turn the clock around and make the necessary changes in our lives. I would definitely have changed our times together. I would have added far more laughter, far more times together, and far more love in them.
I just hope that I have been able to be a good sister while you were there. I am now striving to be a good daughter to ma and papa and I hope that I can measure at least an ounce compared to what you were as a son.
Missing you is an understatement. If there is a word to describe the feeling of the void felt, please use it. I cant find it in my dictionary. And your English was always better than mine.
Be in peace Kartikbhai!
Love,
Devangi
Dearest Kartik,
ReplyDeleteIt is almost a year since you decided to disappear from our life.
Even though you are not physically with us, I still get a feeling that you are very much with us. I often get a feeling that you will come out of your room and say “Mammoodi, come here, I will show some thing interesting on internet or just listen to this beautiful and soothing piece of music listen to this rare song by Kishore Kumar “or feel that suddenly you will knock on bathroom door and say “Maa, I am going to office, Jai Ambe “….. yes, Jai Ambe were the two words you always used to say while going and at night before going to bed. However this time when you departed, you forgot to tell me Jai Ambe! You also forgot to tell me when you will be back….
I do not think that you will ever be angry with us but do forgive us if either consciously or unconsciously we have hurt you or forced our ideas/ decisions on you or made you unhappy. We know that you have always taken things positively.
We always pray and await your presence in our life and in our dreams.
Affectionately yours,
Maa. /Mammoodi
kokila.g.rindani@gmail.com
Respected Dear Kartikbhai
ReplyDeleteI don't know what it is like to lose a loved one ..and god forbid if something like that should ever happen. I don't even have a sibling/child to understand the pain of losing them in an untimely manner. But I do hope and pray that you remain in everyone's hearts as a fond memory ...even good memories bring sadness ...but the very thought of your spirit for life, should instill a sense of peace in all of us mortal souls out here. Whenever I narrowly focus on something trivial...or become upset about a mini-failure ..I think of the brave fight you put up and feel ashamed of my weaknesses. I wish that if life were to put me in tough spot ever, I would be as cheerful, optimistic and as strong as you were. Dhiti
Thinking about you a lot today, my friend. We are going to Modern College again this weekend for the second time. With your love and guidance, all will go well. Will update in a bit - your help desperately needed as always.
ReplyDeleteI am sure he is with all of us!
DeleteThere are so many things I want to share with you, happiness, grief, tensions, frustrations. I still do. The only difference is that you do not answer back! I wish there was some way of knowing that you can hear me.
ReplyDeleteBut I know there isn't. I know that even if you can, you cannot let me know that.
All that is in my hands is to believe! Believe that you are around, believe that you can hear me, believe that you will hold my hand and direct me, believe that you will look out for all of us.
Simple truth, difficult to follow!
I feel as if I have broken into so many pieces of late. I do not feel the confident self I was before and I dont think I can ever be again.
ReplyDeleteI feel as if somewhere I have failed. I have not been able to keep Ma and Papa happy. I know that it is something I could not have helped in my mind but deep down wonder if I could have protected them from this pain that they went through or are going through.
How I wish you were here, to look after them, to look after me! I dont know whom to turn to. I sometimes cannot go through the pain myself and try to reduce it for them at the same time. Am I failing? Am I doing alright? I just dont know anymore.
All I know is that with each day I miss you even more and wish even more that you were by my side.
Lots of love Kartikbhai stay in peace!
Kartik, this has taken time but this year's function at Modern college has been just wonderful. We had a programming contest and I kept remembering your quip about Online transaction programming through it all. Nice to see the bright enthusiastic kids do so well and give it their best. There was also a poster competition which was very well done. We want to make the programme even bigger next year with a two day event. The momentum is afoot, dear friend.
ReplyDeleteThere isn't a 'like' button here :-)
DeleteI know. This whole blog would be flooded...
DeleteHave a great day friend. Thinking a lot about you this morning.
ReplyDeleteThe sea it was blue and the grass it was green,
ReplyDeleteEvery star rattled a round tambourine;
Ten thousand miles deep in a pit there I lay:
But you frowned like thunder and you went away." - W.H.Auden
The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
ReplyDeletePack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
For nothing now can ever come to any good. - W.H.Auden
Sixth Kartikeya Rindani Scholarship done...It was a wonderful success. Most heartening was to see past recipient Sagar Shinde be a part of the contributors...much like Swapna some years back.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday friend. Thanks for everything.
ReplyDeleteVisiting this page after long long time. It is because I now converse with you in my head more. But the need to read your words, the need to reassure that you wrote those inspiring, touching words, the words that the lovely people wrote about you and to you, was just too much resist!
ReplyDeleteMiss you, today and always!